Monday, June 6, 2011

It couldn't possibly be.

Could it? This late in the game? Surely not! But not sure what else it could be. Could this post race slump happen so many weeks after an event? As it has never happened to me before after a swim event it has me quite stumped. For the last 3 weeks it has been and on again off again saga - one minute I feel okay and on top of the world and then the next I feel sad, tired and lacking of enthusiasm.

This has me very worried considering that as of next week I start my training again for Yeppoon. When I think back to how I was feeling for Port training - enthused, ecstatic, bubbling with excitement - this is NOT how I am feeling at the moment. Right at this very moment I feel - NOTHING. Actually, I lie - I feel overwhelmed. Engulfed would probably be a more fitting word.

This feeling seems to be having negative side effects on my emotional well being. I am normally a happy, cheery person who can tackle a million and one things and still come out on top, and somehow at the moment I feel like everything is coming on top of me. And it's probably not - actually if I was to look at it with non-judgemental eyes, it really isn't but it is the feeling of treading water that I don't like.

I like waking up and knowing that I am on top of everything and that I am in control. However, when I wake up feeling overwhelmed before the day has even started - that is not a good thing in my books. I think I need to cut me some slack and know that it's okay to not feel 100% all the time - day in and day out.

I was even working on a little project which I was excited about and have decided to not go ahead with it at the moment as it would just be something else to think about, and if I couldn't give that 100% the way I do everything else then I would feel disappointed. So, it is on hold. Till I am thinking clearer and back to being Barbie.

But I am still left to wonder - is this a delayed POST RACE SLUMP?


  1. Barb, I go through these slumps often. I think the wisest thing you said was that it is o.k. to not feel 100% all the time. 80% will often get you the same result and a longer life. I remember learning once that those who don't worry about being on time are actually happier than those who do. Boy that pissed me off! xoxoxo to you!

  2. Barbara, it could very well be... after my first half I sort of "self-sabotaged" myself and was uncapable to do anything. I so wanted to but couldn't.. Take it a day at a time, do it if you feel like it and don't if not... your body is wise and could be asking for a tinsy tiny rest. As Adrienne said, same results and longer life but not being 100%... I'd take it over anything! Go with the flow... it works for me!
    I wanted to ask you a question. As of June 22nd I won't have a job, the news hit me like lightning... it wasn't nice but now I only look at the bright side of it. There's a 70.3 that takes place at the end of May and it's only about 35 minutes drive from here. Since I'll have plenty of time in my hands... and a year to go, do you think I can do it? Since I won't have a job and can't afford a trainer, I've looked up some training plans on internet. What do you think? Can this (me) fat mommy be a 70.3 finisher by May 2012?
    Chin up girl... you're always inspiring me! Big hugs and kisses your way :D

  3. You are such a huge inspiration to so many people, myself included. Take this week to do whatever you need for yourself right now! We're all here for you and cheering for you! Slumps are really hard and are really hard on you emotionally. Sending you a big hug!


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