Thursday, March 3, 2011

I need.......

Stillness of the mind. Every so often I require my brain to just STOP. To have peace, serenity - a moment of just NOTHING. Free from guilt and the everyday movement of life. Do you ever need that?

Yesterday's funeral for my Uncle Jose highlighted how fragile and precious our life is. That if we don't just stop to inhale - exhale, grab tight to what is happening in the present moment, then without any real warning - it can all be gone. It makes you embrace those who are near and dear and take in every detail of who they are ( every movement, expression, gesture) and lock it away for safe keeping. I came away from yesterday feeling an overwhelming sense of how I seem to be rushing through things, without really just STOPPING for all the small things that we can at times find insignificant.

"Live every act fully, as if it were your last"

I was kind of flat for the remainder of the day - just didn't have my usual ZING and still don't one day later. Not sure what that's about. I'm not tired just emotionally drained. The real me will pop up shortly - takes a fair bit to hold me down.

So last night PTC had a Bike Maintenance night for everyone. There were about 20 of us and we learnt so much from the guys at Panther Cycles.
  • How to wash the bike
  • What to degrease the bike chain and other parts with the proper solutions.
  • How to change a flat
  • How to take wheels off and put them on correctly
  • and many other things.

Thanks guys I learnt a whole heap.

And then after this was all said and done I got to enjoy a really nice coffee and some supper with those who attended. It was a great afternoon/evening.

As previously stated I am still quite flat this morning. This melancholy is unnerving. Have to get my head back in the game for tomorrow as I have a 2.5hr ride with 8 x 1min efforts off the bike and then a wedding to go to. BUSY BUSY BUSY.

What was I saying about needing some STILLNESS?


  1. Yogis say to stop the Vrittis or turnings of the mind to achieve single pointed concentration. Easier said than done!

  2. I'm sorry about your uncle. It is always at times like those that it makes us take a look at our own lives and realize what is the most important. Stopping to "smell the roses" is so important!

  3. Stillness is good. Take the day and be still.
    You can move again tomorrow:)

    Sorry about your uncle. That is never easy.

  4. So sorry to hear about the passing of your uncle. I'm assuming that's the same one you mentioned in your blog next week. It's not uncommon of course to feel a little melancholy after something like that, you will be back to you soon.

  5. Patrick: Wouldn't it be good if we could switch our minds on and off like that.

    Aimee: I couldn't agree more. Thankyou.

    Dawn: I will thankyou :)

    Michael: The Uncle I visited on Saturday afternoon after swim is my Dad's sister's husband. He is having tests to confirm the tumour in his lung. This uncle (friend of the family for over 40yrs)was battling cancer for 18mths and Mum told me on Sunday. It is just sad - but I guess the older one gets it is inevitable that there will be loss and sadness. You can still never prepare yourself though.

  6. So so sorry about your uncle. I lost my cousin in February - things are still not quite the same each day, but it does make me stop and think through the sadness to realize life here is short and we must make each moment sweet and full.

  7. Barb--So sorry about your uncle! Definitely a disquieting thing for you. I hope you find your peace and comfort soon.

  8. God speed to your uncle. Good for you for getting in the bike maint clinic. It blows me away how many people are unaware. You'll get your mojo back asap, your a little tiger (or tigress) I guess.


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